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Danica, turning 18 in 8/14, Leo, living in Vegas and my current love status is STABLE.
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No More Heartbreaks
[ We kissed at Thursday, May. 26, 2005, 11:51 P.M. ]
Fredy and I are over. Chad and I are over. It's all about Kyle and I. I haven't updated in so long so I had to make the story uber duber short. Chad and I were just never ever meant to be. I don't think we ever will be so now, I decided not to talk to him again (maybe EVER AGAIN, I dunno, I don't wanna say anything like that coz chances are I am gonna run into him again!) and if I do see him again, we are just gonna be friends. I dreamt about marrying him, being his girl or his wife but.. that's all I can do. I guess that dream will never ever come true. It's a nice dream though coz he's a GREAT guy. When did I ever get the person that I want or I deserve? So yeah, that's that. If I run into Chad again next time, if ever he tries something COZ I KNOW I WON'T coz I know it'll only be a disaster, I'm gonna stop him, ignore him and just totally block it out. I will never ever fall for him again. He will never ever break my heart like this again. I told him that I'm gonna call him again when I'm ready, but from how things are goin', I don't even think I'm gonna call, maybe I will, I dunno that, but I want us to just run into each other COINCIDENTALLY because that would be a sign that it's actually right for us to talk again. But other than that, I'm not initiating anything. It's all up to fate, destiny or whatever coz fate showed me anyway that him and I are just wrong. So wrong. So now, I'm with Kyle, I'm just moving on quite well. I admit I still think of Chad, all the time coz I fell for him and I was in-love with him, but it's a mistake I'll never ever commit again. Heaven forbid I don't because if I do next time, I dunno what I'll do. That would be stupid of me coz he'll never ever fall for a messed up girl like me. NEVER. You heard that. He deserves someone who'll love him truthfully and won't mess up on him in any way. I did feel that way for him but I still lost him so like what I said, we just weren't meant to be. That's my take on that. Now, I'm in-like with Kyle so I'm trying not to make same mistakes that I did with Chad or any other guy that I talked to. Kyle is important to me and this is a relationship that I wanna grow with and I wanna be in for a long time. I think Kyle might be the one for me,(no, I don't mean marriage, I meant relationship) so just wish me luck on that one.
Danica